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  “I know. I am trying to get a grip.”

  He raised an eyebrow.

  “Really, I am. It’s not like I’ve been pining over him. I knew it was over. It’s just hard seeing that he’s moved on. I mean, first he’s engaged. Now he’s going to be a father.”

  “Well, technically, I think the pregnancy came first.”

  “Still, it was only two years ago. Did you see the way he looked at her? He’s completely smitten.” She sighed. “Who can blame him? She’s gorgeous.”

  “She’s not that pretty.”

  “You really think so?”

  “I like blondes.” He reached behind her and gently yanked her ponytail. “Spunky ones.”

  She laughed. “Apparently not at summer camp that year.” Her heart began to tighten, and she turned away and looked back at the newborns. She really had meant what she said—she wasn’t pining over Brad. But why hadn’t he seen his future with her? Was she not wife material?

  “Mandy!”

  Amanda recognized that voice and spun on her heels. Her younger brother approached them. “Alex!” She hugged him. “Oh, I’m sorry.” She pulled back and brushed the last of her tears with the back of her hand. “Didn’t mean to get you wet.”

  “Is everything okay?” Alex cocked his eyebrow and studied Tate.

  “Fine. Everything’s fine,” Amanda said. “Alex, this is Tate Ryan.”

  “Mom said you were bringing someone home.” He extended his hand, but shot Amanda a questioning look.

  Tate shook it. “Hey, I’m going to go grab us some coffee. Can I get you anything, Alex?”

  “No, I’m headed out. The cafeteria’s on the first floor, to the right.”

  “Thanks, Tate,” Amanda said.

  “Be right back.” Tate strolled down the hall.

  She turned to Alex. “It’s been a long day.”

  “You sure you’re all right?” He stared off in Tate’s direction, watching him get on the elevator.

  “I will be.” She squared her shoulders determined not to let her heartache show. “How’s Quinn?”

  “She’s good. There’s our niece.” He pointed to a tiny baby in the middle wrapped in a pink blanket.

  Amanda peered in the window again. They’d all known Quinn was having a girl. Their sister could never keep a secret. “Oh my gosh! When was she born?”

  “12:01 A.M.”

  “She’s a Christmas Eve baby! How fitting for the Turner family.” She and Alex stood in silence for a few minutes watching the sleeping baby.

  “Where’s Quinn?”

  “Room 322. Mom and Dad just left.”

  “She must be exhausted.”

  “She could use some sleep.” He zipped up his jacket. “So how long have you been dating?”

  “Dating?”

  “Tate?”

  “Oh, right. Since June.”

  “Really?” Alex frowned. “Isn’t this the co-anchor you can’t stand?”

  Crap! How could have she forgotten? She’d confided in Alex on more than one occasion that she thought Tate was arrogant and that he got on her nerves. This could ruin everything.

  Play it cool, Amanda. God, she wished she were better at thinking on her feet. She’d never admit it to Tate, but he probably could give her a few pointers. It was like the teleprompter jam all over again.

  She took a deep breath. Here goes nothing. “That was before I got to know him. He really is quite wonderful.”

  There. That wasn’t so hard. She didn’t need Tate to swoop in and save the day.

  Alex raised an eyebrow. “Really, but didn’t you just say last week you thought he was a flirt?”

  She shifted uncomfortably. “Did I?”

  He nodded. “More than once.”

  “Well, what I meant was he has a way with our female viewers. It’s good for ratings. Honestly, I couldn’t be happier. Tate’s the best thing to ever happen to me,” she added for good measure.

  Her brother shot her a look of disbelief. “Well, I need to hit the hay. Big day tomorrow. Did you tell Tate that he’ll be helping us?”

  “Sort of.” She patted him on his back. “He’ll be ready in the morning. Promise you’ll take good care of him.”

  “Oh, I’ll take good care of him all right. You can count on it.”

  • • •

  “So, we might have a tiny little problem.” Amanda walked into her childhood room and flipped on the light switch, dropping her suitcase.

  “What would that be?” Tate followed her in and set his duffle bag down. The upstairs of the cabin was just as rustic and charming as the downstairs. He was going to love spending the weekend here pretending to be Amanda’s boyfriend. Not a bad way to spend his holiday as far as he was concerned.

  “I forgot that I’ve pretty much given my brother a play-by-play of our altercations since day one and that I pretty much despise you.” She reached for a pillow from off the bed and dropped it on the floor. “He called me out on it tonight.”

  “So we’ve had a few disagreements.”

  She laughed “Yeah. Every week.”

  “We do fight often, don’t we?”

  She nodded. “It’s usually your fault.”

  “You don’t really despise me, do you?”

  “I guess not.” She grabbed a blanket lying over a rocking chair and handed it to Tate. “Here you go.”

  He sat on the bed. “You’re seriously going to make me sleep on the floor?”

  Amanda nodded with conviction then shook her head. “I guess that would be mean. We’re adults.” She waved a finger his way. “You’re sleeping above the comforter, though, and if you touch me, I’ll scream.

  “Fine.” Tate chuckled. There were other, more pleasurable ways he’d like to make her scream.

  Amanda picked up the pillow and threw it at Tate. “Anyway, my brother is overprotective. I’m sure he doesn’t want me to get hurt again.”

  “Understandable.” He propped the pillow up on the headboard. “If I had a sister, I’m sure I’d look out for her, too.”

  “We’ll need to prove to him we’re in love.”

  He raised an interested eyebrow. “What do you have in mind?”

  “I don’t know.” Amanda came over and sat next to him, stretching her legs and arching her back.

  Tate slipped off his shoes, exhaustion finally setting in. Could he convince her that giving him a massage would be a great way to start? He doubted it. Leaning back, he crossed his feet and laid his head on the pillow. “So, Amanda. What will we be doing tomorrow? Is your dad Santa Claus?”

  “No.” She pulled the elastic band out of her hair, letting it fall around her shoulders. “Well, at least he’s not the Santa Claus. The trees at the bottom of the hill—it’s our family business. We grow and sell them.” Amanda shot up and moved to the window, pushing back the ruby red curtains. “All of this is a Christmas tree farm. Did your family not get their tree from us?”

  “No, we didn’t live here very long.” His heart tugged at the memory of his parents. He rolled over on his side and propped up on his elbow.

  “Oh, that’s right. You said that earlier.”

  “Is selling Christmas trees a fulltime business?”

  “It can be, and for my family it is. The next few days are often two of our busiest.”

  “I would think most people have their trees by now, don’t they?”

  “Yes, but Christmas Eve for the Turners is always about making sure every family that wants one in this county has a tree. My family works overtime to make that happen.”

  “That’s really awesome. How come you’ve never mentioned this before?”

  She shrugged and straightened her sweater. “I guess I don’t share much about my personal life with my colleagues.” She peered outside the window. “Well, isn’t that interesting . . . .” She spun around. “Come here,” she demanded. “Quick.”

  “What’s wrong?” He jumped off the bed.

  “Don’t look.” She moved from t
he window. “Brad’s outside drinking a beer. He’s looking right up here.”

  Tate grinned. “Why that Peeping Tom. Want me to go down and kick his ass?”

  “I’ve got a better idea.” She grabbed the bottom of her sweater and yanked it over her head.

  Tate blinked. “Amanda?” She was standing in front of him in a black satin bra. He stared at her breasts, wanting to reach out and unhook the material that stood between him and them.

  “I’m tired of playing the victim.” She reached for his arm and positioned him so they were face to face in front of the window. Her eyes revealed a seductive glint.

  “What are you doing?” Her hands were gently tugging his sweater.

  “Oh, I think Tate Ryan knows exactly what I’m doing.” She yanked his sweater up.

  He certainly did and helped her pull it over his head. Before it hit the floor, her lips were on his. Was Christmas coming early for him?

  She jumped up and latched her legs around his hips.

  Apparently it was.

  He spun her around, gently cupping her round bottom. She was planting soft kisses on his neck while her hands ran up and down his back. This was way too good to be true.

  “Is he looking?” She nibbled on his earlobe.

  “Who?”

  “Brad,” she muttered. “Is he still watching?” Her tongue probed his ear.

  He closed his eyes and let out a soft moan. “I’m sure of it,” he whispered. His lips crashed into hers for another long kiss.

  She broke contact. “Take me to the bed.”

  He carried her from the window and gently laid her down on the satin red comforter. He leaned in to resume the kiss. His lips needed to be back on hers, to show her just how much he wanted her . . .

  She squirmed from his grasp, crept over to the light switch, and flipped it off. Flopping back on the bed, she giggled and brought her knees up, covering her chest. “That was awesome!”

  Tate cocked an eyebrow. It was a phrase he’d heard before, but usually it came after sex, not before.

  “I’m sure Brad saw all of it. Thank you.” She reached out to high five him. “By the way, nice moves.”

  Tate’s heart sank. The window show was all a charade. Of course, he’d known that, but somewhere between her straddling him and his groin tightening, he’d forgotten. All in a day’s work,” he mumbled and high fived her back. “You weren’t so bad yourself.”

  She swung her legs around to the floor and picked up her sweater. As quickly as it had come off, she slipped it back on.

  The moment really was over. Tate rose from the bed. “Um, Amanda, if you’re done with me, I think I’m going to take a shower.” A cold one.

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  “Quit it.” Amanda giggled and blocked her face with her hand. “Tate, cut it out. Someone might hear us.”

  Her eyes popped open. It was daylight, and she was in her own bed—alone. Tate wasn’t showering her with kisses, but something was, and it had fur.

  “Jingle Bells!” She sat up and hugged the rambunctious Jack Russell Terrier. The family dog continued to smother her with his wet tongue. “Jingles, I have missed you so much.” She rubbed his white belly.

  The sound of water running in the adjoining bathroom signaled Tate must have jumped in the shower.

  She thought back to the last twenty-four hours. Who could have predicted it would have started with Santa’s butt lodged in her car and ended with her straddling her co-anchor.

  Tate certainly knew how to kiss. Wow! She hadn’t meant to go so over the top. Just enough for Brad’s benefit. But then, Tate had devoured her . . .

  It was all for show, she rationalized. Still, when Tate had kissed her, her toes curled. She got caught up in the moment. Apparently, from her outburst in her sleep, she was still in it. What was wrong with her? This was Tate. He annoyed her on most days.

  The warm aromas of coffee and maple syrup swirled in the air, causing her stomach to growl. Breakfast must be ready. It was nice to be home and in the room she spent so much of her time in growing up. Although, glancing around, she noticed her mother was now using the space primarily for holiday decoration storage.

  To the left of her bed was a short alcove. It once held her desk and chair and was where she’d spent hours upon hours writing stories for her high school newspaper, dreaming of the day she would leave this town and become a Pulitzer Prize winning journalist.

  Now, hundreds of square papier mâché boxes covered her beloved desk and the floor around it. The boxes were meticulously labeled and organized by “lights,” “tinsel,” “ornaments,” “bows and ribbons” and “angel tree toppers.” She got up and brought a box over to the bed then jumped back underneath the warm blankets. Opening it, she delicately pushed aside the red glittery tissue paper, revealing a beautiful angel in a glistening white satin dress.

  She imagined a child gleefully placing the doll on the top of one of her father’s beautiful Christmas trees. She playfully touched the angel to Jingles’s wet nose before wrapping it back in the tissue paper and returning it to its box. With all the anxiety that this time of year gave her, she had to admit that this week always delivered magic and joy to many in this community, and her family played a big role in creating that magic.

  Leaving her warm bed, she pushed back the red velvet drapes and peered through the glass. She could see her father on the south side of the front lawn inspecting the trees. He was, no doubt, preparing them for transport later this morning.

  She grabbed a long pine green sweater that made her green eyes pop, along with black yoga pants and brown Ugg boots. She’d showered last night but could get changed and freshen up in an empty guest bathroom. She looked back at the dog, burried underneath a blanket, who was fast asleep on the bed. “Oh, no you don’t. We’re in this together.” She nudged him off the bed.

  “Oh, wait.” She reached down and picked up the papier mâché box from the bed, gently returning it to where she had gotten it. “Heaven forbid Mom discovers a tampered box. I then would have no choice but to blame you, wouldn’t I?”

  Jingles answered back with a highpitched bark.

  “Let’s go.” She wanted to give Tate some privacy to finish in the shower. Leaning against the door, her thoughts went back to last night. After she’d kissed him silly, they’d fallen asleep. He’d been true to his word and slept above the covers.

  Now hot water was drenching his naked body. Really, Amanda. What’s wrong with you? She couldn’t explain these new fantasies involving Tate that had hijacked her thoughts, but one thing was for sure: her weekend seemed to be looking up.

  She dressed and brushed her teeth hurriedly in another upstairs bathroom and headed back to her room. The door was still closed, but she could hear Tate’s voice. He must be talking on the phone. Perhaps wishing his family a Merry Christmas. She smiled. Maybe he wasn’t the jerk she thought he was after all.

  “Hey, Amanda.”

  The smile on her face turned upside down. She turned around.

  “Morning, Brad.” She forced the smile back.

  He stood next to her. Gone was his police uniform. In its place, jeans and a dark blue flannel shirt that covered his broad shoulders. He was just as handsome as ever, wearing his Yankees baseball cap.

  “Hi.”

  “Did you sleep well last night? I, um . . .” she stammered. “I mean, we did.” She pointed to the bedroom door. “We were out like a light.”

  “Listen, I know this is really awkward.”

  “What? You and me?” She waved her hand. “That’s history. Water under the bridge. I’m really happy for you.”

  “Thank you. That means a lot.”

  She studied Brad. He sounded truly sincere. He’d moved on. It was probably time for her to do the same.

  Besides, the butterflies she would usually get every time Brad entered a room hadn’t arrived. That had to mean something. Maybe her heart had finally caught up with her head and realized he wasn’t the one.

>   “Melanie seems nice,” she offered.

  “Yeah, she’s great.”

  “Congratulations on your engagement.”

  “Thanks.” He adjusted his cap. “You seem happy.”

  “I am. With Tate,” she added quickly. “We’re really happy.”

  “So we saw.” Brad headed down the staircase. “I should go help your father.”

  Amanda’s stood, mouth agape. What was he implying? “Wait. Hold up.” She chased him down the stairs, lunging for his arm. “What do you mean ‘we’?”

  Brad smirked. “Might want to close the drapes next time.” He opened the front door and paused. “Tell your mom I enjoyed our talk last night.”

  She stood in horror. Oh, God. Had there been someone outside with him? She couldn’t recall seeing anyone, let alone her mother. Her mom had to have been fast asleep by then. There’s no way her mother would have been standing outside in the dead of winter after midnight. He had to be messing with her.

  She paced back and forth in the foyer. But what if someone else did see? What would she say? How would she explain?

  She was pretty sure appearing in front of the guest bedroom window half naked while straddling an equally half-dressed man for all to see would put her on the naughty list.

  • • •

  Tate stepped out of shower and whipped a towel around his hips. He swooped his hand over the foggy mirror and cleared the mist that had collected—all the while singing “I’ll Be Home for Christmas.” It didn’t go unnoticed that the song had special meaning for him this year.

  Last night’s impromptu make out session was still fresh in his mind. Thank you, Brad, for being a voyeur. Even if it meant nothing to Amanda and had been merely an attempt on her part to piss off her ex-boyfriend, he had to admit kissing her was everything he had dreamed of and then some.

  If only she felt the same way about him. Still, the way she responded to his touch . . . He’d been around the block a time or two. He thought he could tell when a woman wasn’t really into it. Her equally engaged lips suggested she’d enjoyed their charade every bit as much as he did. If she was completely faking it, she deserved an Oscar.

  Pretending or not, he hoped today involved more kisses.